hm

Family drama can really give me an impetus to draw? I don’t know anymore.

I NEED TO DO THIS

Dear God, please bestow onto me amazing colouring skillz to pull this picture off, historical inaccuracies be damned.

Lithuania

So today was the first day of exercising! Text comes later~

And I bring the UK today~

I did make a resolution to do (but not post) a Hetalia something everyday. Today was rather unproductive despite the festive “End of Exam” mood, but hey, there’s Arthur for you! I’m still not in an introspective enough mood to post something relatively intellectual, so bear with my fangirl fanart for a while.

In other news, my laptop screen is PUNY. 15′ is NOT enough when working with some stupid huge ass canvas. In my opinion at least, since I work on 200% zoom, which is stupid, but I’m anal about my lines.

I’m lazy to study!

So I’ll post a very bad colouring of Robb. He looks so old here.

I fail at discipline

And this isn’t even HALF of the mess that has been clogging up my brain after my maths paper. Obviously, I can’t wait till history is over.

f my… waaaait.

Oh shat. Exam. 2101. Incoherent.

exams? What exams?

ARGH!! My exams start tomorrow and I am anything but prepared.

The worst part is the sudden desire to bring this thing to life. orz.

Seventh Heaven

I haven’t coded anything in Java for a very very very long time and here I am doing some crazy shit (well it’s quite nuub actually) programming that is confusing the living hell out of me. Mainly because I’m not all too savvy with inheritance and aggregation and composition and whatnot and this program I’m writing involves a lot of that. It’s a pretty simple program that I found inside my 1102 textbook, so I decided to try and code it. Well my mind decided that programs like that are never going to work IRL so troublemaker me decided to add a bit more to it. And a bit more got me into this mess.

GAH. Back to work.

On the other hand, I am really digging this guy, kei. The guitarist of the band kannivalism, who recently just started his solo project. I’m utterly addicted to vesperbell. It’s a really awesome piece.

never end

I never really had a proper post to start off my new school term. It’s amazing that we’ve already started semester 2 when it seemed like just yesterday when I just got to know my OG mates during the first week of semester 1. Now look at us, 6 months on, complaining about modules and whatnot like veterans.

I’m taking 6 modules now, most of them being core modules. Somehow, I think I’m just purposely being suicidal to see how far I can stretch before I finally snap, lose control, and run all around COM1 screaming murder or something. I’ll be taking CS1102X, CS2100 (urgh binary shits, but I am interested in learning all the background behind the programming), NM2101 (DRY DRY DRY DRY DRY DRY AND USELESS), NM2208 (you can check out my NM2208 blog at overworked.wordpress.com), MA1505 (: O), and finally my balance off module, HY2255.

1102X seems dry and I can’t wait to get programming again. I’m rusty. Very much so. OOP will kill me very much. And where did that resolution to learn C go to… 2100 is a shock. I never thought I could hate 0 and 1 so much in my entire life. 2101 is just a lot of theories and proving things and disproving things, which seems really pointless. Theories of Communication and Media. Whut? 2208 is more interesting and worthwhile since its a very hands on and practical module on visual principles. I leave with an understanding on how to work on projects and a portfolio. Cheers. 1505. Well. Haha. HY2255, Islam in History, is just a balance off to all the core modules I’m taking. It’s rather interesting to study Islam from an academic perspective now, especially since I’ve been learning it from a religious perspective for about.. my entire life? The professor is also very engaging, which is why I absolutely love taking History modules.

So far the workload is alright since tutorials and labs haven’t started yet. I’ve also taken to tutoring a kid on a part time basis so preparing for lessons and making sure I don’t screw up the job also takes up quite a bit of my time. Not to mention I’ve agreed to help the animal society write something on animal abuse for their newsletter, scholarship applications, and even an essay for the St Gallen Symphosium which I really want to try for. Somehow, it seems like I’m trying to make up for everything that I didn’t do in my first semester in my second. I suppose all that stoning got to me now.

It seems that everyone will hit that one point in life when they will suddenly start contemplating about the strangest things in life and start trying to redefine themselves in ways that they would have never thought possible before. For me, it’s a strange sense of religious awakening which actually scares me more than it reassures me. Blame it on me reading Dante’s Inferno on the way to school everyday, but reading about Hell and the world beyond the mundane added to the fact that I’m taking a module on a religion which half the world can’t believe I’m a believer in makes me feel strange.

It’s the sense where I believe in my God, but somehow I doubt the leaders that I’m supposed to take a lead from in this religion. Like the lecturer said, Islam as we see it today is different from the Islam that was practised in the time of the Prophet Muhammad and possibly even by the time Islam reached South East Asia, it would have acquired several traits or practices that aren’t inherently Islam, but have been adapted into the religion such that it becomes an Islamic practise. Then can it really be said that we should just follow what our religious teachers say because they are senior to us and more practiced? From experience, I have honestly heard the most ridiculous and silly stories that my siblings were told by their religious teachers and somehow that truly makes me doubt the credibility of our leaders. But then again, who am I to say anything? I’m barely even a practising Muslim. I have no doubt of my belief in God, but perhaps its the teenage jaded-ness that got to me, and like my mum always says, Satan is swinging around in my arteries. : )

Speaking to my mum about continuing my religious education to the diploma level just sparked off a couple of thoughts in my head. A few years ago, when I started JC, I would have never considered it. Now, it seems a little bit tempting. Maybe I would do it just to gain enough knowledge to challenge what I know now. God knows, I need that.